Green isnot usually one of my favorite colors, but, of late, it is one that I seem drawn to. The new small works of leaves, rocks and water intrigue...
Color of interest
June 30, 2014
Trust you are enjoying the new website. It is great to be able to share the work I have done and, as the weeks go by, the paintings I am working on....
My New Website
June 26, 2014
SpottedSerpents are not my first thought as I greet the day, and yet they have been popping up in my mind the last few days. I did a series of serp...
July 5, 2014
Long Days and Memories
June 22, 2015
The l o n g e s tday of the year passedcelebratingFather’sdaybut neither had much effect for Mother. She is lost to events as they march by not touching her mind. She is sleepy this morning but insists that she sit in her chair and watch the world unfold to a new day. She constantly waits for something to happen but has no way of knowing when it does. Like the flowers that bloom and disappear and seem never to have been there she sees but doesn't understand. She appreciates kindness and says thank you often but there is no recognition of who the person is or their relationship to her. It is my memories that form the net that connects us together, not hers. Just like a child who does not comprehend what is going on only that there is someone there to protect and provide for. It is a great learning about love and who the person I am is like. Yesterday I was discussing the word sacrifice and why we do what we do with others. Why do we give up our own objectives to care and provide for others? The only thing I came up with is that it is love and we are loved and so we love. It goes beyond payback and is greater than hope of gain for there is none now, only love remains and it is by far worth everything I do to care for Mother. Love serves another purpose for me because it illuminates what is inside of me.
As I work on the new pond painting I see more and more clearly. Without the love I am not sure I would be able to see into the depths of who I am and what I value. Sometimes I think of all the things done to provide and care for Mother and Dad, and the time and the effort and when I do, I find that it was worth it all. Years ago I would not have thought that. It was what I wanted that was important and now that person is in the past and has changed to another person. Maybe that is why the pond series is important to me; to explore the change and see who I am now and am becoming. A verse says “Perfect love casts out fear.” Maybe that is why I am not afraid of seeing me as I am. That the love holds everything together and cleans and heals that which I would not look at before. Before I was sure of others’ love and now I am sure of my love. Odd paradox that makes sense to me but not sure it will to others. One thing I do know, it is generating all sorts of new images in my mind and giving me a joy to examine my inner self in what I love to do through paint and visual images. It is like going out on the rocks at the beach and seeing, through the crystal water, what lies at the bottom and is floating by. Sometimes jelly fish with their bulbous sails dance by while fish dart and seaweed bounces with the current, there is so much and it is so beautiful. It is a great adventure to wander and see who I am.
Hope you are finding out who you are and discovering that you like and care for the person you are. That even the parts that you wish were not there are part of you and that they can change as you do. That not everything you brought for your camping trip needs to be taken with you. You can let things go and enjoy the freedom of a lighter load. That you can share your love and find that you always have more love than you thought you did. That you can put others first and not find yourself diminished or your life less wonderful. That you can find peace in being the person you are.